La Vida Loca de La Gringa

The life of a 23 year old missionary who used to live at an orphanage in Mexcio, but is now trying to adjust to living back in the United States.

Friday, January 12, 2007

Waiting

Lately I have really been waiting for the answer to what I am supposed to do with my life and especially right now. It is very frustrating and sometimes I want to give up in despair. This precious poem has helped me and I wanted to show it with other potential "waiters"!

Wait
by Russell Kelfer

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate...
and the Master so gently said,"Wait."

"Wait? you say wait?" my indignant reply."
Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your Word.

My future and all to which I relate
hangs in the balance and you tell me to Wait?
I'm needing a 'yes', a go-ahead sign.
Or even a 'no,' to which I'll resign.

You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
Lord, I've been asking, and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply."

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate
as my Master replied again, "Wait."
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,
and grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting...for what?"

He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine...
and He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.

I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.
You'd have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of My love for each saint.
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint.

You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair;
you'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there.
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me
when darkness and silence are all you can see.

You'd never experience the fullness of love
when the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.

The glow of My comfort late into the night,
the faith that I give when you walk without sight.
The depth that's beyond getting just what you ask
From an infinite God who makes what you have last.

You'd never know should your pain quickly flee,
what it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
but oh, the loss if I lost what I'm doing in you.

So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
that the greatest of gifts is to truly know me.
And though oft My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still "Wait".

3 Comments:

  • At 7:25 PM, Blogger Feanor said…

    I made a comment, and then it wasn't allowed to do whatever normal comments do after they have been conceived, and then I just felt to tired to write another. So I'll just say instead that I love you and that you're an amazing person and one of my heroes and I want you to be my third mommy, will that be ok? Ok great.

     
  • At 7:05 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Hi Erin,
    I don't know if you remember me or not, but we met at the Ranch several years ago. We were there when your mom and siblings were visiting. Anyways, I found your blog doing some research on Rancho 3M before our trip last fall. I don't usually comment since you don't know me, but I can really relate to your situation and I was very blessed by the poem you put up so I thought I would say "hi" and "thanks". I hope that his year is filled with more of God's grace than you would ever even ask for and that each difficult moment draws you closer to your Lord.
    If you ever want to see more pictures of the kids at the Ranch, I have a link to LOTS of them somewhere on my blog...check the Oct/Nov archives....there is a video also.
    In Christ,
    Missy

     
  • At 3:09 PM, Blogger Petr said…

    Hey Erin! Just thought I'd say hi. "Hi"

    -Peter

     

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